Millie Mackintosh posted a poignant poem about motherhood on Thursday – admitting she relates to it.
Alongside smiling snaps with her adorable baby girl Sienna, six months, Millie, 31, wrote: ‘One of my best friends sent me this poem and it’s so lovely I wanted to share it.
‘I’m not sure who wrote it so please tag if you know.’
Sweet: Millie Mackintosh posted a poignant poem about motherhood on Thursday – admitting she relates to it
The poem reads: ‘Motherhood goes like this: You want to speed it up and slow it down. You want them to be grown ups and babies at the same time.
‘The things that drive you insane are the things you know you’ll miss the most. You want a break but you miss them on the break.
‘You want to cry because you are so broken, but you want to happy cry because you are so whole. You lose yourself and find yourself almost every day.
‘You have no idea what you’re doing, but you know you’re doing exactly what you’re supposed to be doing.
Doting: Alongside smiling snaps with her adorable baby girl Sienna, six months, Millie, 29, wrote – ‘One of my best friends sent me this poem and it’s so lovely I wanted to share it’
The poem reads: ‘Motherhood goes like this: You want to speed it up and slow it down. You want them to be grown ups and babies at the same time’
‘It’s just the way it is. So cheers to all the mums in all the phases, you’re not alone!’
In the photos, Millie posed with Sienna who wore a cute pink dress and matching bow.
Millie wore an autumnal dress with crimped detailing, adorned with a speckled design.
Fashionable pair: Millie posed with Sienna who wore a cute pink dress and matching bow. Millie wore an autumnal dress with crimped detailing, adorned with a speckled design
Millie recently opened up about her struggle to be ‘happy and radiant,’ after giving birth to her first child in May.
The former Made In Chelsea star admitted she started suffering from the baby blues just three days after welcoming her daughter, and constantly felt guilty for feeling sad.
In an article for Grazia magazine, Millie spoke about giving birth during the pandemic, saying: ‘I think the lockdown restrictions worked in my favour – because I really didn’t want to have to put a brave face on when having visitors.
Expectations: Millie recently opened up about her struggle to be ‘happy and radiant,’ after giving birth to her first child in May, with her partner, Hugo Taylor (pictured)
‘As a new mum, everyone expects you to be so radiant and happy – but as I recently mentioned on Instagram, for about six weeks, I really struggled with the baby blues.’
Millie – who is married to her former co-star Hugo Taylor, 34 – admitted nothing could have prepared for the confusing time ahead, as her mood and hormones began to dramatically change.
She disclosed to the publication: ‘I kept thinking, “Here I am: I’ve got this beautiful baby, I’ve got this amazing husband – and we’re so lucky”.
‘I was asking myself, “why am I sad?” And then, when you feel guilty for these feelings, you find yourself getting into a real cycle.
Emotional: The former Made In Chelsea star, 31, admitted that she started suffering from the baby blues just three days following the birth, and constantly felt guilty for feeling sad
‘Hugo found it really hard to see me cry, because, obviously, the first thing you want to do when someone you love is upset is to try and fix it.’
Millie was concered that the ups and downs she was experiencing could snowball into something bigger, such as post-natal depression.
She ultimately spoke to her obstetrician for advice, who reassured her that her feelings were most likely due to hormones.
For Millie, she noticed that when she hit the six-week mark after giving birth, her sad moments were reduced and she started to regain control over her emotions.
Honest: Millie admitted nothing could have prepared for the confusing time ahead, as her mood and hormones began to dramatically change
Open: Taking to Instagram in October, the reality star shared a sweet picture with her little one and opened up publicly for the first time about her mental health struggles
The reality star previously described how opening up to her social media followers was ‘carthartic’, and helped her relate to other mothers who feel the same.
In the emotional Instagram post, she penned: ‘Let’s talk about the Baby Blues! Like most new mum’s when I first arrived home with Sienna, I was totally overwhelmed by the love I felt for her, but I also felt very confused by the conflict in my emotions.
‘I’d go from being euphorically happy, to being deeply sad and tearful in the same moment.
‘Hugo would ask what was wrong and I was unable to give him an answer which only made me feel worse as I couldn’t explain these all-consuming emotions.
Supportive partner: Millie has been married to her former Made In Chelsea co-star Hugo Taylor, 34, since June 2018
‘There was the irony of feeling so incredible lucky and happy, surrounded by cake, flowers, cards celebrating our adorable new arrival, yet feeling so stormy inside, which spiralled into anxiety as I feared developing post-natal depression (which did not happen), it almost started to take over the most precious time in my life.’
Millie and Hugo tied the knot in June 2018 at his uncle’s country estate, Whithurst Park in West Sussex, one year after he proposed during a holiday to the Greek island of Mykonos.
The couple briefly dated during their Made In Chelsea days back in 2011 and reunited in May 2016 shortly after Millie’s split from her first husband, rapper Professor Green, 36.
Millie was married to the musician, real name Stephen Manderson, for two-and-a-half years before they announced their split in February 2016.
For help call Pre and Postnatal Depression Advice and Support (PANDAS) on 0808 1961 776