Amanda Holden fought back tears while appearing on Lorraine on Friday when she revealed her new single reminds husband Chris Hughes of their stillborn son, Theo.
The TV star debuted her the song, With You, from the musical Ghost on YouTube on Thursday and Chris said it brought back memories of losing Theo back in 2011.
Amanda, 49, said: ‘It’s a song about grief and loss. It’s a very moving song. My whole album means so much for me.
Memories: Amanda Holden fought back tears as she told Lorraine on Friday her new single reminds her ‘stoic’ husband of their stillborn son Theo who was born sleeping in 2011
Moving: She debuted her new single With You on YouTube on Thursday and released this video, admitted her husband’s reaction to the track ‘floored her’
‘I sing it a lot. My whole album in fact is about songs that mean so much to me and my family. It was my husband Chris who absolutely floored me one day when I was singing.
‘He said, “The last two lines of that song really remind me of how we felt when we lost Theo” – who was our lovely little boy who was born sleeping. The last two lines are, “you took my world away, you took my life away”.’
Amanda continued: ‘Chris is a typically stoic man who was very supportive of me and our girl Lexie when it all happened and never took time for himself.
‘So for him to come out with that sentence, it just floored me. That’s the first single we thought to release – very emotional.’
Family: Amanda and her husband Chris Hughes are also parents to daughters Lexi, 14, and Hollie, eight (pictured this summer)
Sneak peek: The Britain’s Got Talent judge, 49, exuded glamour as she performed the song on stage in an empty theatre wearing a sequinned gown, before walking through woodland
In a video shared on the show, Amanda exuded glamour as she performed on stage in an empty theatre wearing a sequinned gown, before walking through woodland.
Amanda looked visibly emotional as she walked through a forest in a black tulle pleated gown.
At one point the West End star threw her hands out as she belted out the moving lyrics.
With You comes from Amanda’s debut album Songs From My Heart, which feature an array of musical theatre tracks.
Emotional: Amanda told the host: ‘It’s a song about grief and loss. It’s a very moving song. My whole album means so much for me’
These include I Dreamed A Dream (Les Miserables), Not While I’m Around (Sweeney Todd), Don’t Cry For Me Argentina (Evita), I Know Him So Well with Sheridan Smith (Chess).
Amanda, who has two daughters Lexi, 14 and Hollie, eight, said: ‘People think they know who I am because they see me being loud and outrageous on the television or radio.
‘That is a part of me but really I’m all about my family. This album is all the songs I’ve loved in my life, sung for the people who mean the most to me. It’s a very emotional album that everyone can relate to.
Heartache: In the video, Amanda looked visibly emotional as she walked through a forest in a black tulle pleated gown
Singing her heart out: At one point the West End star threw her hands out as she belted out the moving lyrics
‘I had a tape recorder as a little girl and would sing into it dreaming of this moment. There is a story behind every song on the album, celebrating life, love and loss – the darkest and happiest moments in my life so far. It is literally my heart laid bare.’
The first unexpected glimpse of Amanda’s music arrived in May this year, when she released her debut single Over the Rainbow to help raise vital funds during the Covid-19 crisis, with all proceeds of the track being donated to NHS Charities Together.
The single reaching number two in the charts – while also hitting the number one top spot on the iTunes chart.
Family: ‘This album is all the songs I’ve loved in my life, sung for the people who mean the most to me’, she said
Debut album: With You comes from Amanda’s debut album Songs From My Heart, which feature an array of musical theatre tracks
While on Lorraine, Amanda also discussed how Simon Cowell was doing after he was forced to pull out on Britain’s Got Talent after breaking his back.
She said: ‘He is doing really well. Our producer had a conversation with him a few days ago. He’s doing well, he’s sounding healthy and happy.
‘Simon is a workaholic, we want him to take time to recover. We’re glad he’s got both feet up. ‘
Songs From My Heart is to be released via Universal Records on 2nd October, with Amanda performing live on Britain’s Got Talent on 3rd October.
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Recovery: While on Lorraine, Amanda also discussed how Simon Cowell was doing after he was forced to pull out on Britain’s Got Talent after breaking his back
Doing well: She said: ‘He is doing really well. Our producer had a conversation with him a few days ago. He’s doing well, he’s sounding healthy and happy’