‘I feel terrible guilt that I’m not around for the kids’: Pregnant Kate Ferdinand says she’s ‘losing her mind’ and has been overcome with ‘sickness and fatigue’ in emotional post
Pregnant Kate Ferdinand has said she’s feeling ‘terrible guilt’ over feeling too ill to look after her stepchildren, Lorenz, 13, Tate, 11, and Tia, nine.
Sharing a picture of her bump on Instagram on Monday, the wife of footballer Rio, 41, said she has been questioning if she is ‘losing her mind’ in an emotional and honest post.
The 29-year-old said she has been feeling sick, suffering from migraines and has been totally wiped out as she gets used to the changes in her body.
‘I feel terrible guilt that I’m not around for the kids’: Pregnant Kate Ferdinand said on Instagram on Monday she’s ‘losing her mind’ and has been overcome with ‘sickness and fatigue’
She said: ‘I’ve been pretty quiet on here recently. Honestly, I’ve just been so exhausted I don’t know wether I’m coming or going. [sic].
‘How I’ve been feeling has been changing daily so I’ve found it hard to share anything because I don’t really know how I feel myself….
‘Any other pregnant women feeling the same? Or am I losing my mind?? Anyway, after posting a workout yesterday I’ve had so many questions about working out so thought I would share with you my journey so far.’
Kate said: ‘I’ve been doing Pilates & some weight training – my mind feels so much better for it, for me the gym is like therapy it really does help me stay calm and less anxious’
She continued: ‘It’s taken me some time to really get used to the fact that I’m growing a little human in me and to slow down. I’m always running around a hundred miles an hour, trying to do everything and taking it easy is just not in my makeup, it’s taken some adjustments.
‘In regards to training I trained for the first 8 weeks and then became absolutely exhausted, I really struggled with everything, I just felt sick tired and all over the place constantly… it was hard for my mind but I really had to listen to my body; rest & take it easy.
‘When I say take it easy, I took it very easy there was lots of naps and not a lot of anything else.
‘After the 12 week mark I have started to feel gradually better and felt I could get back into doing more bits that I would normally do and back into training slowly, I’ve been doing Pilates & some weight training – my mind feels so much better for it, for me the gym is like therapy it really does help me stay calm and less anxious.’
She penned: ‘Saying all of this, there are still days I feel absolutely wiped out, have terrible migraines & I do just go back to bed.
‘In all honestly those days I feel so useless and have been having terrible guilt that I’m not around for the kids and Rio is doing everything.’
On a positive note, she added: ‘It’s such an amazing feeling having a little human inside of you, our family is so excited but it’s also so scary being pregnant for the first time…
‘I worry about everything having 3 big kiddies to look after and feeling like a ‘mum’ already but actually not being through this experience before has me feeling all types of confused!
‘I just wanted to share the reality of how I’m feeling, also some hope that I’m not alone ❤️ lots of love x.’